Nothing and Everything
Fall is near. I can feel a gentle breeze in the evenings walking home from work.
The mornings are cool, too, and I don’t want to leave my bed. Last night I felt
I could sleep forever–in someone’s arms.
Over the summer I ate a lot and worked out a lot and noticed a difference in my
body and mind. I was on an island. There were many interesting people on the
island…and lots of boys who liked me. They were not gay…they were just boys who found me kakoi! It was nice to meet nice boys.
Tokyo life is getting better. I am discovering that it is not so bad. My friend wrote me a letter saying everyone in Japan wants to embrace me, that the culture wants to embrace me. I’m embraceable. Japan….is embraceable.
I am not worried about anything today. Not health. Not death. Not about being single. Many people ask, Why are you single. I can only say it is not my time.
What do I love about Japan? Sometimes it is hard to say. Sometimes I bitch a lot about what I don’t understand. But bitchiness is a sign of bitterness and it is best to be better instead of bitter. I love Japan because it gave me a new life. My world is new. My dreams are new. And as muzukashi as it can be it is also a very beautiful life.